College. Oh college. This first month and a half has been an adventure. A whole new realm. I’ve managed to get to the point where I think I’m mostly adjusted, with only a few breakdowns. But today…well, I just have to put it out there that college is not the nonstop fun that everyone says it will be. They lie.
The truth is, I miss long hot baths. Driving my car. Not having to share a kitchen with half my dorm floor. Not constantly thinking about money or my lack thereof. Most importantly, I miss having quiet time to myself. Solitude. Everywhere I go, I’m surrounded by people. Even in my room I’m never alone because of my roomie. I can’t sit and pray and read my Bible for an hour in the presence of Jesus because I have to worry about offending her (she just so happens to be Jewish). I truly regret taking for granted being able to cry just to “let it out” without someone thinking I’m insane. Sometimes you just need to let the tears out. But you can’t. And it is awful. As well as is finding your roommate skyping her boyfriend, crying, and you’re just awkwardly there, trying to think of somewhere else to go. And when you sit in the hallway to talk to your mom and wish her a happy birthday because it’s the only semi-quiet place where you won’t disturb anyone, you get yelled at by an RA. You’re supposed to be free, an adult…yet you’re constantly bound by rules.
My point isn’t that people shouldn’t go to college. If it’s part of your plan— or more importantly, God’s plan for your life—you should go! There are some really great things about college. You learn so much, meet so many new people and have so many opportunities to grow. But I just feel like someone needs to put it out there in the universe that college is not all fun and games. Besides the ridiculous amounts of reading, studying and homework, you really do not get the freedom that “people” say you do. All those college life blogs, all your older siblings, cousins, parents, aunts, uncles…they lie. Because they only tell you the good parts about college—they’re lying by omission. College is work. You never really get a break. The people who tell you otherwise are probably always drunk.